Emotional Weather Forecast

this is my first weather forecast. i've been hiding my true self and trying to blend for years, somehow i forgot how to be ME. but now, i want to stand out and shine among the crowd. i don't want to be labelled as someone's something. i wanted to be known as I am. ♥


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100 photo challenge

Hello there! Months have passed yet i'm still a noob blogger. i hope i can practice my blogging skills with this new challenge.

I found it in miss sunshine's blog. here's the link, . She included reasons why she wanted to do this blog challenge and there are some that i can truly relate too. thank you ma'am !

Here's my reasons:

1. if painters or any type of sort uses paintings, drawings, sculptures,etc to express their inner thoughts or feelings, photography and writing are the things that i consider the "art" forms for journalists.through our writings and photos, we can give our readers another glimpse about things through our "own" lenses. i guess, a budding journalist like me can benefit in this challenge.

2. we had photography classes during our sophomore year so this is not somewhat new to me. it's time to practice my shutterbug skills (:

3. i appreciate the certain moments and emotions that pictures can capture in just one click.

Here's the list !!!

Day 01 - A picture of yourself with fifteen facts.
Day 02 - A picture of you and a friend you have been close with for awhile.
Day 03 - A picture of the cast from your favorite show.
Day 04 - A picture of favorite missed memory.
Day 05 - A picture of you and the person you've had the best memories with.
Day 06 - A picture of a person you’d love to trade places with for a day.
Day 07 - A picture of you and someone you'd be lost without .
Day 08 - A picture that makes you laugh.
Day 09 - A picture of the person who has gotten you through the most.
Day 10 - A picture of your favorite sport or favorite athlete.
Day 11 - A picture of something you hate.
Day 12 - A picture of something you love.
Day 13 - A picture of your favorite band or artist.
Day 14 - A picture of someone you could never imagine your life without.
Day 15 - A picture of something you want to do before you die.
Day 16 - A picture of someone who inspires you.
Day 17 - A picture of something that has made a huge impact on your life recently.
Day 18 - A picture of your biggest insecurity.
Day 19 - A picture of you when you were little.
Day 20 - A picture of somewhere you’d love to travel.
Day 21 - A picture of something you wish you could forget.
Day 22 - A picture of something you wish you were better at.
Day 23 - A picture of your favorite book.
Day 24 - A picture of something you wish you could change.
Day 25 - A picture of your day.
Day 26 - A picture of something that means a lot to you.
Day 27 - A picture of yourself and a family member.
Day 28 - A picture of something you’re afraid of.
Day 29 - A picture of someone that can always make you smile.
Day 30 - A picture of someone you miss.
Day 31 - A picture of what you wore today.
Day 32 - A picture of what you did today.
Day 33 - A picture of you doing something you love.
Day 34 - A picture of your currently most played CD.
Day 35 - A picture of your favorite place to eat.
Day 36 - A picture of your ‘other half'.
Day 37 - A picture of the people you spend most of your time with.
Day 38 - A picture of the best part of your day.
Day 39 - A picture of your favorite movie.
Day 40 - A picture of your favorite Disney character.
Day 41 - A picture of your pet.
Day 42 - A picture of your dream house.
Day 43 - A picture of something you can’t function without.
Day 44 - A picture of someone you’re told you look like.
Day 45 - A picture of you wished your room looked like.
Day 46 - A picture of where you wish you were right now.
Day 47 - A picture of your favorite place to shop.
Day 48 - A picture of your favorite actress/actor.
Day 49 - A picture of where you live.
Day 50 - A picture of what you'll be doing tomorrow.
Day 51 - A picture of your dream car.
Day 52 - A picture of your favorite sport.
Day 53 - A picture of someone you think is hot.
Day 54 - A picture of the one thing you would bring if you were stranded on a deserted island.
Day 55 - A picture of the last movie you saw in theaters.
Day 56 - A picture of something that makes you happy.
Day 57 - A picture of your favorite holiday.
Day 58 - A picture of your favorite animal.
Day 59 - A picture of a random item that you own.
Day 60 - A picture of something you’re excited about
Day 61 - School class picture
Day 62 - Last place you traveled to
Day 63 - Sports awards
Day 64 - Favorite childhood book
Day 65 - A picture of you and your best friend
Day 66 - A picture in your room
Day 67 - Something Green
Day 68 - A magazine you like
Day 69 - Something Red
Day 70 - Something you borrowed from someone else
Day 71 - A picture of your favorite piece of jewelry
Day 72 - A stuffed animal
Day 73 - Your lunch
Day 74 - Something you found under your bed
Day 75 - You and a friend
Day 76 - Something that annoys you
Day 77 - The last thing that you bought
Day 78 - Your sunglasses
Day 79 - A ticket from somewhere you've been
Day 80 - Your favorite childhood movie
Day 81 - Something you baked
Day 82 - The most embarrassing thing in your closet
Day 83 - The moon tonight
Day 84 - Your favorite pair of shorts
Day 85 - Something Pink
Day 86 - Something your mom bought you
Day 87 - Something you hold dear to your heart
Day 88 - Your bathroom
Day 89 - What's in your fridge?
Day 90 - Your current school photo
Day 91 - Something that made you smile today
Day 92 - Something weird in your house
Day 93 - The view from your bedroom window
Day 94 - What your doing right now
Day 95 - Something yellow
Day 96 - A place you went today
Day 97 - Something heart shaped
Day 98 - Your favorite nail polish color
Day 99 - Something that makes you feel accomplished
Day 100 - The final picture of yourself with 15 facts.

wish me luck (: good night.

THINGS TO DO THIS MONTH

★ let GO and Let GOD ♥
★ don't forget to text them
★ be patient, avoid nagging (:
★ DEFINITELY no facebook, just update blog.
★ EAT healthy
★ avoid buying things impulsively especially food
★ focus on studying
★ read.read.read.
★ write.write.write.
★ be confident!!
★ smile always (:

this looks nothing like a to-do list, more of a new year's resolution. bwhahahaha. anyway,wish me luck.

'till we meet again, August!






It was already 8:00 in the morning when i woke up. I haven't got a class today but my sister's high-pitched voice filled the room waking me up.

I haven't been viewing a calendar for a while now because i was so busy with schoolworks and my 9 to 9 classes.

i have no idea that yesterday was the day i had with "you know who" or the "He-Who-Must-Not-Be-Named". It was a certain event that made me want to skip the whole month of August!



"It's not you, It's ME.."

God has been good to me but i guess i'm the own who must be blamed. He was always there beside me but i refuse to take refuge in Him. I wanted to but I guess my negativity overpowered me. Sorry :(

Sorry August but i guess i need to move on with September.
These past month that i had spent with you was so vague that it seems like i skipped a month.Days even weeks had passed but i remained feeling sort of tired and somewhat numb due to the series of unfortunate events that happened in my life for the past few months.

Thanks August.
Though it has been a vague one, I'm glad that I spent 31 days with you.

Thanks for the memories including my oh-so-special 19th birthday, battle with Investigative Journ,and what else,oh right a year-old heartbreak.

PS. Don't you worry because you'll have a special spot in my heart.

So long, August. 'till we meet me again (:





1 YEAR BABY (:


when i turned 18 last year, the first thing i did on my birthday was to create a blogger account,which is something i've always wanted to do. -- to have a place where i can express my innermost thoughts and feelings that a timid girl like me cannot share with the world through my actions and also a place where i can be my truest self.

though i haven't been blogging for quite some time due to my hectic-yet-fabulous schedule (ehem), i'm hoping that this will be a great year for us , my dear blog.

Happy 1st Birthday, Bloggie (:

other challenges

30 Day Poetry Challenge

Day 1- Write a poem where each line starts with a letter from your first name (an acrostic). It can be about anything, but it should not be about you or your name.

Day 2- Who was the last person you texted? Write a five line poem to that person.

Day 3- Find the nearest book (of any kind). Turn to page 8. Use the first ten full words on the page in a poem. You may use them in any order, anywhere in the poem.

Day 4- Write a haiku. They’re often about nature, but yours can be about anything.

Day 5- Write a three line poem about lemons without using the following words: lemon, yellow, round, fruit, citrus, tart, juicy, peel, and sour.

Day 6- Write a poem of any length incorporating every word from your latest Facebook status.

Day 7- Take a walk until you find a tree you identify with, then write a poem using the tree as a metaphor for yourself or your life.

Day 8- Write a cinquain on a topic of your choice.

Day 9- Quickly jot down four verbs, four adjectives, and four nouns. Write a poem using all 12 words.

Day 10- Pick a one line song lyric to serve as an epigraph to your poem. Then, write the poem to accompany it.

Day 11- Write a list poem.

Day 12- Tell your life story in 6 words.

Day 13- Write a short poem that a child would like.

Day 14- Write a bad poem, make it as lousy as you can, do everything wrong, let yourself be awful.

Day 15- Post a poem (written by someone else) that you love (for any reason).

Day 16- Respond to the poem you posted yesterday with a poem of your own.

Day 17- Write a poem that employs a rhyme scheme.

Day 18- Write a poem without any end rhyme, only internal rhyme.

Day 19- Imagine yourself doing any household task/chore, then write a poem using what you’ve imagined as an extended metaphor for writing.

Day 20- Write a narrative poem detailing a specific childhood memory.

Day 21- Choose one of the poems you’ve already written and posted as part of this challenge and re-order it in some way. You could rearrange the lines or stanzas or even words in a line. Think of it as a puzzle!

Day 22- What is the first car you bought/drove/remember? Write a poem about it.

Day 23- Write a seven line poem that begins with “it’s true that fresh air is good for the body” (from Frank O’Hara’s poem “Ave Maria”) and ends with “this is our body” (from Gary Snyder’s “The Bath”).

Day 24- Write a poem that’s different in some way from anything you’ve ever written. Take a chance! Be wild!

Day 25- Write a poem that includes all of the following words: pistachio, ink, pebble, weather, varnish.

Day 26- Gather some magazines/catalogs you don’t mind cutting up and spend ten minutes flipping through them looking for words/sentences that spark your interest. Cut out the words as you go, and (at the end of the ten minutes) arrange the words to form a cut-out poem.

Day 27- Begin with the title “The Poem I’d Never Write.” Then, write that poem.

Day 28- Visit a virtual art gallery and look around until you find a piece that intrigues you. Write a poem inspired by the artwork.

Day 29- Briefly research a poetic form of your choice and write a poem according to the rules of that particular form.

Day 30- Write a poem employing extended metaphor to illustrate the experience of the last thirty days.


25 Days Hidden Depths Challenge

1:: A Recent Picture of yourself.

2:: What are you? How would you describe your identity?

3:: What parts of your personality do you like?

4:: What parts of your personality don’t you like?

5:: Name the family member you are closest to, and describe the reltionship you have with them.

6:: Tell us the first 5 random thoughts that come into your head right now.

7:: Name your favourite celebrity, and why you think you would make a great friend to them.

8:: Who has had the biggest impact in your life so far, and what has that impact been?

9:: Do you care about what people think of you? Why is this?

10:: Whers is your *happy place*. Describe it and share why its your happy place.

11:: What wouldn’t you change about your life? Why?

12:: What is your perception of love?

13:: Your favourite photo, and why its your favourite?

14:: What is the reasoning behind your Tumblr name?

15:: What is your most treasured possession and why?

16:: What made you decide to sign up to Tumblr?

17:: Name 5 of your favourite things?

18:: If you could be an animal, which one would you be and why?

19:: Describe your ideal 24 hours.

20:: Has this challenge inspired you to create your own one?

25 Tasks for Self Esteem

Task/Day 1: Do not say anything bad about yourself all day.

Task/Day 2: Do not say anything bad about anyone else all day.

Task/Day 3: Look at yourself in the mirror. Don’t leave until you find five beautiful things. List them.

Task/Day 4: Listen to an uplifting sing each time you feel bad about yourself or think bad thoughts. Count the number of

times you have to do this.

Task/Day 5: Compliment yourself three times, each time you have a bad thought.

Task/Day 6: Show a part of your body that you are uncomfortable with.

Task/Day 7: Hug your friends and family.

Task/Day 8: Smile today. Remember, you’re beautiful inside and out.

Task/Day 9: Say “thank you” when someone says nice things to you. Say something nice back.

Task/Day 10: Don’t reject or downplay any thoughts or ideas you have. You’re not “stupid”.

Task/Day 11: Sing a song out loud to yourself, but not a sad song. The happiest song you can think of.

Task/Day 12: List five things you’re proud of.

Task/Day 13: List five “facts” about yourself. Ask two close friends to comment on all of your thoughts.

Task/Day 14: Think of three people you compare yourself to. STOP IT.

Task/Day 15: List ten good qualities about your personality.

Task/Day 16: Think of five bad things you’ve done, or big mistakes you’ve made. It’s time to forgive yourself.

Task/Day 17: Don’t say anything bad about yourself again. You do this too much, so you have to repeat this task.

Task/Day 18: Give every person you talk to a compliment.

Task/Day 19: Do things you love ALL day. DO NOT to anything you truly hate.

Task/Day 20: Praise yourself 10 times. List these praises. Don’t feel like you are bragging. You deserve this.

Task/Day 21: Think of five good things you’ve done. Remember THEM.

Task/Day 22: Look people in the eye. Why? You’ll learn more about them by seeing their faces.

Task/Day 23: Read an uplifting poem or book and think of it if you get down on yourself.

Task/Day 24: Let yourself experience the feelings you’ve always denied yourself.

Task/Day 25: Remember those good feelings and thoughts? Keep them. Forever.

15 Day Challenge

Day 1: Write 5 things that sum you up. Include a picture with 1 or more of these things.

Day 2: Write about your crush. Write anything: if you’re friends, don’t talk, it’s going great or it’s complicated.

Whatever it is, write it down. Pictures optional.

Day 3: What’s the meaning behind your URL? Why did you make a Tumblr?

Day 4: Is there drama in your life just now with friends and/or family? Write about it.

Day 5: What are you grateful for?

Day 6: Are you a virgin? Yes/no, discuss it.

Day 7: Write about how you do your makeup/hair. Why do you do it that way?

Day 8: Write about your ideal partner in detail. Does your crush match the criteria? If no, talk about that.

Day 9: What is your definition of the word hate? Talk about 3 things you hate.

Day 10: What is your definition of the word love? Talk about 3 things you love.

Day 11: Your fears?

Day 12: Are you happy with how you look?

Day 13: Post a picture of yourself and write what you see.

Day 14: Post a picture of a friend and write what you see.

Day 15: If you could, would you rather live in the early 1900’s?

10 Day Book Challenge

1.      Favorite book. Explain why you like it

2.      Worst book you have read. Explain why is the worst

3.      A book you are willing to read, why.

4.      Your favorite quote of any of the books you have read

5.      Which book you want-need to be made into a movie.

6.      Favorite character of any book.

7.      Have you read HP? Did you like it? yes no why?

8.      Have you read The twilight saga? did you like it? yes, no why?

9.      A book you recomend? Why?

10.  Make a little resume about your favorite book.


“Checking In” Challenge

1 - Two good things that happened recently

2 - Most recent person you started following on Tumblr and why

3 - Last movie you saw and your thoughts on it

4 - Story behind something you recently discovered

5 - Recent development in one particular relationship of yours

6 - Last book you read and your thoughts on it

7 - One unlucky thing that happened recently

8 - The latest random thing that happened to you

9 - Something you learned about yourself recently

10 - Last trip you went on and one major highlight

11 - Most recent event that made you smile

12 - Three new music artist you became interested in

13 - Last thing you’ve missed of reminisced about

14 - Most recent words of wisdom you heard that stuck with you

15 - Two things that you hope to see happened in the next three months

15 Day Friends Challenge

01. A picture and some facts about the friend that you’ve known the longest

02. A picture (if you have one) and some facts about the friend that you’ve met most recently.

03. Qualities that you admire in your best friend

04. Qualities that you look for in a friend

05. Your favorite quote about friendship

06. The story that you will tell your kids about how you met your best friend

07. Your favorite picture of you and your best friend

08. A picture of your group of friends

09. Dream vacation that you’d like to take with your best friend

10. Favorite movie about friendship

11. A song that reminds you of your best friend

12. Why is your best friend your best friend?

13. Your dream “Friend Date”

14. Your dreams and hopes for you and your best friend

15. A letter to your best friend.

FOR ALL OF YOU WHO ASKED FOR THIS “TYPES” OF “CHALLENGES”!

dearescapist:

    Appearance
    I have/had piercings besides the ears.
    I want piercings besides the ears.
    I have many scars.
    I tan easily.
    I wish my hair was a different color.
    I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color.
    I have/want a tattoo.
    I can be self-conscious about my appearance.
    I have/had braces. (retainers)
    I have more than two piercings.

    Embarrassment
    Disney movies still make me cry.
    I’ve laughed so hard I’ve cried.
    I’ve glued my hand to something.
    I’ve laughed until some kind of beverage came out of my nose
    I’ve had my pants rip in public.
    I’ve touched something sharp/hot/etc to see if it would hurt.

    Health
    I’ve gotten stitches.
    I’ve broken or dislocated a bone.
    I’ve had my tonsils removed.
    I’ve had my wisdom teeth removed.
    I’ve had chicken pox.

    Travel
    I’ve been to Florida.
    I’ve driven/ridden over 200 kilometers in one day.
    I’ve been on a plane.
    I’ve been to Colombia
    I’ve been to Cuba.
    I’ve been to Niagara Falls.
    I’ve been to Ottawa
    I’ve been to the Caribbean.
    I’ve been to Europe.

    Experiences
    I’ve gotten lost in my city.
    I’ve seen a shooting star.
    I’ve wished on a shooting star.
    I’ve seen a meteor shower.
    I’ve gone out in public in my pajamas.
    I’ve pushed all the buttons on an elevator.
    I’ve slapped someone.
    I’ve kissed someone underwater. (does my brother cheek counts LOL)
    I’ve chugged something.
    I’ve crashed a car.
    I’ve been skiing.
    I’ve been in a musical.
    I’ve auditioned for something.
    I’ve been on stage.
    I’ve caught a snowflake on my tongue.
    I’ve sat on a rooftop at night.
    I’ve pranked someone.
    I’ve ridden in a taxi.

    Honesty / Crime
    I’ve been threatened to be arrested.
    I’ve broken a law.
    I’ve done something I promised someone I wouldn’t.
    I’ve done something I promised myself I wouldn’t.
    I’ve sneaked out.
    I’ve lied about my whereabouts.
    I’ve cheated while playing a game.
    I’ve been in a fist fight.

    Death
    I’m afraid of dying.
    I hate funerals.
    I’ve seen someone/something die.
    Someone close to me has attempted/committed suicide.
    I have attempted suicide.
    I’ve thought about suicide before.
    I’ve written a eulogy for myself.

    Materialism
    I own over 5 rap CD’s.
    I’m obsessed with anime/manga.
    I collected comic books.
    I own a lot of makeup.
    I own something from Pac Sun.
    I own something from The Gap.
    I own something I got on E-Bay.
    I own something from Abercrombie.
    I thrive on compliments.
    I thrive on hate.

    Random
    I can sing low key.
    I’ve stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant.
    I open up to others easily.
    I watch the news occasionally or always.
    I don’t like to kill bugs.
    I sing in the shower.

    I’m a morning person.

    I’m a sports fanatic.
    I twirl my hair.
    I care about grammar.
    I love spam.
    I’ve copied more than 30 CD’s in a day.
    I bake well.
    My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, blue, red, black, purple, or orange.
    I would wear pajamas to school.
    I like Martha Stewart.
    I laugh at my own jokes. (LIKE A FUCKING BOSS)
    I eat fast food weekly.
    I’ve not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class.
    I can’t sleep if there’s a spider in the room.
    I’m really ticklish.
    I like white chocolate.
    I bite my nails.
    I’m good at remembering names.
    I’m good at remembering dates.
    I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.

    People
    ..used to ask if I was anorexic/bulimic.
    ..called me fat.
    ..say I’m skinny.
    ..have said I’m ugly.
    ..have said I’m pretty.

    ..have spread rumors about me.
    ..force me to eat.
    ..say I eat too much.
    ..say I eat too little.

    Eating
    I’ve lost weight.
    I’ve gained weight.
    I’m at my thinnest.
    I’m at my biggest.
    I’ve lost weight and kept it off.
    I’ve lost weight, but gained it back.
    My weight affects my mood. A lot.
    I diet.
    I’m vegan/vegetarian.
    I exercise.
    I’ve fainted from exhaustion.

    Family
    I’ve sworn at my parents.
    I’ve planned to run away from home before.
    I’ve run away from home.
    My biological parents are together.
    I have a sibling less than one year old.
    I want kids.
    I’ve had kids.
    I’ve lost a child.

    Relationships
    I’m engaged.
    I’m married.
    I’m a swinger.
    I’ve gone on a blind date.
    I have/had a friend with benefits.
    I miss someone right now.
    I have a fear of abandonment.
    I’ve gotten divorced.
    I’ve had feelings for someone who didn’t have them back.
    Someone has/had feelings for me when I didn’t have them back.
    I’ve told someone I loved them when I didn’t.
    I’ve told someone I didn’t love them when I did.
    I’ve kept something from a past relationship.

    Sexuality
    I’m a cuddler.
    I’ve been kissed in the rain.
    I’ve hugged a stranger.
    I’ve kissed a stranger.

    Bad times
    I regularly drink.
    I can’t swallow pills
    I can swallow numerous pills at a time without difficulty.
    I’ve been diagnosed with depression at some point.
    I have/had anxiety problems.
    I shut others out when I’m upset.
    I don’t have anyone to talk to when I’m upset.
    I have taken/take anti-depressants.
    I’ve slept an entire day before.
    I’ve plotted revenge.

(Source: jusstfuckit)

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Don't Be Afraid To Be Yourself.

So people have been asking for this kind of surveys! So here is one:

    Reblog and bold what applies to you.

        * I’m loud.
        * I’m sarcastic.
        * I cry easily.
        * I have a bad temper.
        *  I’m easy to get along with.
        * I have more enemies than friends.
        * I’ve smoked
        * I drink coffee.
        * I clean my room daily.

    My appearance:

        * I wear make-up.
        * I wear a piece of jewelry at all times.
        * I wear contacts.
        * I wear glasses.
        * I have braces.
        * I change my hair color often.
        * I have a piercing.
        * I have small feet.

    Relationships:

        * I’m in a relationship now.
        * I’m single.
        * I’m crushin’.
        * I’ve missed an ex before.
        * I’m always scared of being hurt.
        * I’ve told someone I didn’t love them when I did.
        * I’ve been in love more than two times.
        * I believe in love at first sight.

    Friendships:

        * I have a best friend. 
        * I have at least ten REAL friends.
        * I’ve gotten a phone call in the last 48 hours from a friend.
        * I’ve beaten up a friend.
        * I’ve been in a serious fight with a friend.
        * I can trust at least five people with my life.

    Experiences:

        * I’ve been on a plane.
        * I’ve taken a taxi.
        * I’ve taken a city bus.
        * I’ve taken a school bus.
        * I’ve made a speech.
        * I’ve been in some sort of club.

    Music:

        * I listen to R&B.
        * I listen to pop.
        * I listen to techno.
        * I listen to rock.
        * I’m one of those people who play songs repeatedly until I hate it.
        * I download music.
        * I buy CD’s.

    Family Life:

        * I get along with both of my parents for the most part.
        * My biological parents are still together.
        * I have at least one brother.
        * I’ve been kicked out of the house.
        * I’ve sworn at my parents.
        * I’ve made my parents cry.
        * I’ve lied to my parents.
        * I’ve lied to my parents about where I am.
        * I’ve lied to my parents about what I’m doing.

    Hair:

        * I’ve had streaks.
        * I’ve cut my hair in the past year.
        * I’ve dyed my hair in the past year.
        * I’ve been blonde.
        * I’ve had black.
        * I’ve been red.
        * I use conditioner. 
        * I’ve curled my hair.
        * I’ve straightened my hair. 

(Source: nancylovesyoux3)

30 Day Celebrity Challenge

Day 1: First Celebrity Obsession

Day 2: First Celebrity Encounter

Day 3: Favorite Celebrity Encounter

Day 4: Current Celebrity Obsession

Day 5: Current Celebrity Crush #1

Day 6: Current Celebrity Crush #2

Day 7: Current Celebrity Crush #3

Day 8: Current Celebrity Crush #4

Day 9: Current Celebrity Crush #5

Day 10: A Celebrity You’d Love To Hang Out With

Day 11: A Celebrity You’d Love To Sit Down and Have A Conversation With

Day 12: An Artist You’d Love To See Live

Day 13: A Celebrity You Respect Purely For Talent

Day 14: A Celebrity You Feel You’d Be Good Friends With

Day 15: A Celebrity You Wish Would Adopt You:

Day 16: A Celebrity You Find Beautiful:

Day 17: A Celebrity You Are Not At All A Fan Of:

Day 18: A Celebrity You Dislike That Others Seem To Love:

Day 19: A Celebrity You Love That Others Seem To Dislike:

Day 20: Favorite No-Longer-Alive Celebrity:

Day 21: A Celebrity That’s Way More Talented Than The Work They’re Getting:

Day 22: A Celebrity You Find Adorable:

Day 23: A Celebrity You’d Marry Right Here, Right Now:

Day 24: A Celebrity Whose Personality Is Irresistible:

Day 25: A Celebrity You Respect For What They’ve Been Through In Life:

Day 26: A Celebrity You Share A Birthday With

Day 27: A Celebrity You Find Annoying

Day 28: Favorite Under 20 Celebrity

Day 29: Favorite Over 60 Celebrity

Day 30: The Celebrity Fandom That Means The Most To You

The 30 Days of Truth List

Day 01 ? Something you hate about yourself.
Day 02 ? Something you love about yourself.
Day 03 ? Something you have to forgive yourself for.
Day 04 ? Something you have to forgive someone for.
Day 05 ? Something you hope to do in your life.
Day 06 ? Something you hope you never have to do.
Day 07 ? Someone who has made your life worth living for.
Day 08 ? Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.
Day 09 ? Someone you didn�t want to let go, but just drifted.
Day 10 ? Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn�t know.
Day 11 ? Something people seem to compliment you the most on.
Day 12 ? Something you never get compliments on.
Day 13 ? A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)
Day 14 ? A hero that has let you down. (letter)
Day 15 ? Something or someone you couldn�t live without, because you�ve tried living without it.
Day 16 ? Someone or something you definitely could live without.
Day 17 ? A book you�ve read that changed your views on something.
Day 18 ? Your views on gay marriage.
Day 19 ? What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?
Day 20 ? Your views on drugs and alcohol.
Day 21 ? (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?
Day 22 ? Something you wish you hadn�t done in your life.
Day 23 ? Something you wish you had done in your life.
Day 24 ? Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)
Day 25 ? The reason you believe you�re still alive today.
Day 26 ? Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?
Day 27 ? What�s the best thing going for you right now?
Day 28 ? What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?
Day 29 ? Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.
Day 30 ? A letter to yourself, tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself

{As seen on GirlVaughn via Avitable.}

quenching my 'blogging' thirst with "30 days of me" (:

Well, hello there bloggie.
 I missed you!
today is 1st of August and i thought it would be nice to try these 'challenges' that i often see in facebook and other social networks. so here it is..

Day 00-Challenge accepted!
Day 01- A recent picture of you and 15 interesting facts about yourself
Day 02- The meaning behind your Blog name
Day 03- A picture of you and your friends
Day 04- A habit that you wish you didn’t have
Day 05- A picture of somewhere you’ve been to
Day 06- Favorite super hero and why
Day 07- A picture of someone/something that has the biggest impact on you
Day 08- Short term goals for this month and why
Day 09- Something you’re proud of in the past few days
Day 10- Songs you listen to when you are Happy, Sad, Bored, Hyped, Mad
Day 11- Another picture of you and your friends
Day 12- How you found out about Blogger and why you made one
Day 13- A letter to someone who has hurt you recently
Day 14- A picture of you and your family
Day 15- Put your iPod on shuffle: First 10 songs that play
Day 16- Another picture of yourself
Day 17- Someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why
Day 18- Plans/dreams/goals you have
Day 19- Nicknames you have; why do you have them
Day 20- Someone you see yourself marrying/being with in the future
Day 21- A picture of something that makes you happy
Day 22- What makes you different from everyone else
Day 23- Something you crave for a lot
Day 24- A letter to your parents
Day 25- What I would find in your bag
Day 26- What you think about your friends
Day 27- Why are you doing this 30 day challenge
Day 28- A picture of you last year and now, how have you changed since then?
Day 29- In this past month, what have you learned
Day 30- Your favorite song.


To tell you the truth, i dont think that i can finish this challenge in 30 days but i'll try.
next post will be posted tomorrow. (I hope!)

much love (:

“Ultio dulcis est”

I would like to share with you, my dear blog, the story that i wrote for our Retorika subject during our sophomore year. nahalungkat ko iyan sa email ko kahapon. honestly, it was not well written unlike some of my classmates’, but for me it is a good start. please bear with me. uhm, so here it goes… 

“Ultio dulcis est”

(Walang Sikretong Hindi Nabubunyag)


CHARACTERS:
           Francisco             Mylene                     Raphael               Paula
            Alcaraz    ←↓→    Martinez     ←↓→     Martinez   ←↓→    Ortega
Francis Andrew Alcaraz*** Myra Denisse Alcaraz**Krystel Laarni ‘Ella” Ortega
                 Mary Paulene Ortega-Alcaraz
 ******* brother/sister
 ←↓→ bore a child
Sa katagang ito na mula sa Kabanata 65 ng Noli Me Tangere ni Dr. Jose Rizal, umiikot ang kwento ng apat na magkakaibang tao na sila Mylene, Franco, Raphael,Paula at ang mga naging bunga ng kanilang pag-iibigan. Pag-ibig na siyang nagbuklod sa mga ito, pag-ibig nga rin ba ang siyang sisira?
Ika- 14 na araw ng buwan ng Pebrero.
Mabuting niyang pinagmasdan ang pamangking si Paulene habang ito’y tumatakbo sa kanya.
Kuhang-kuha nito ang pagiging masayahin at pagkabungisngis ni Ella, ang matalik niyang kaibigan. Naiiba ito sa mga batang kasing-edad nito dahil mayroon itong mature na pagiisip na nakuha naman sa mahal nyang Kuya Andrew.
Isang luha ang nagpadausdos sa kanyang pisngi nang maalala ang mga ito.
Tatlong taon na ang nakakalipas ng sumakabilang-buhay ang dalawa sa mga mahal ni Myra sa buhay, si Kuya Andrew at si Ella dahil sa isang aksidente.
Masakit pa rin sa kanya na naulila ang kanilang anghel dito sa mundong ibabaw na walang kinikilalang ama’t ina.
Bigla siya nitong niyakap at isang tanong ang nagpaalis ng ngiti sa kanyang mga labi,
“ Tita, sino po sila?” tanong ni Paulene.
Dalawang kamay ang humawak sa kanyang mga balikat. Sila Inay at Itay.
“ Panahon na sigurong kanya nang malaman ang tungkol sa kanila. Mas mabuti na alam na niya ng mas maaga.” Sabi ni Aling Mylene,.
“Tama ang Inay mo, Myra” sangayon naman ng kabiyak nito.
“paulene, halika rito.may ikukwento sa’yo si Tita Myra”
                                                                                    
Nagsimula ang lahat ng isang umaga ay nagising na lamang si Mylene dahil sa nakaamoy siya ng hindi kaaaya na nagpabaligtad sa kanyang sikmura.
Patakbo siyang tumakbo sa lababo ng kanilang kusina.inalis niya sa kanyang isip ang masamang posibilidad na siya’y buntis.
Sakto namang nandoon ang kanyang tiyahin na kumakain, Ito ang kanyang Tiya Nene. Inampon ito ng kanyang aguel sa Davao.Dahil nga naman na wala siyang mga nakagisnang mga magulang, pumayag itong mag-alaga sa kanya dahil wala rin itong anak.

Nagulat ito nang siyang namumutla at biglang sumuka.
.“aba, teka! Buntis ka ba? Ang kapal naman ng mukha mo para lumandi ant magpabuntis pagdating mo rito sa Maynila.” Sigaw nito.
‘tita, mahal po naming ni Fanco ang isa’t isa! Papanagutan niya po ang anak naming” tugon niya.
‘nako bahala ka ngang bata ka! Siguraduhin mo lang. kung hindi, uuwi ka ng Davao!!!, babala nito.
Naisip niya bigla ang kanyang kasintahan.Isa itong Medicine student sa UST habang siya naman ay 3rd year nursing student mula sa OLFU.
Nagkakilala sila nito sa isang blood-letting event ng Red Cross. Pareho silang volunteers sa nasabing event.
Alam niyang may posibilidad na hindi nito panagutan ni Franco dahil nga sa magkalayong estado niola sa buhay.
Simula pa lamang ay tutol na ang mga magulang nito sa kanilang relasyon.
Nag-iisang anak kasi  ito ng mag-asawang nabibilang  sa isang prominenteng angkan na magmamay-ari ng mga taniman ng tubo sa Nergos Occidental.
May tiwala si Mylene sa relasyon nila kaya itinuloy pa rin nila.
Iyon ang pagkakamali niya.
Pinaiimbestigahan pala siya ng mama nito.Ang hindi alam niya alam, tumawag na pala ang Tiya niya dito pagkaalis niya para magpa-check up sa doctor.
Masaya siyang dumiretso sa ospital upang siguraduhing siya nga ay nagdadalang-tao. Kumpirmado nga, dalawang buwan na siyang buntis.
Papauwi na siya nang magtext ang mama ni Franco. Magkita daw sila.
Pagkarating niya sa kanilang tagpuan, nagulat siya ng bigyan siya nito ng isangmakapal na envelope.
“ayan ang pera. Ipalaglag mo ang bata. Ayaw naming masira ang pangalan ng anak ko kaya kung tingin mong pananagutan yan ng anak ko, NAGKAKAMALI KA!” sigaw nito sa kanya.
“ kung iyan po ang inaakala ninyo, wala po akong balak ipalaglag ang bata. Bigay poi to ng Diyos sa akin. Kaya ko siyang buhayin kahit ako lamang mag-isa ng hindi humihingi ng tulong sa inyo. Paalam na po.” Sabi niya.
Bago man umalis, gusto niyang sabihin sa kanyang kasintahan ang kanyang kalagayan. Nakapaghanap siya ng tiyempo ng sunduin siya nito mula sa unibersidad na pinapasukan niya.
Para itong hindi mapakali ang kanyang kasintahan.
“hindi ka ata naka-uniform ngayon. May klase ka hindi ba?” nagtatakang tanong nito.
“wala lang. ayoko kasing pumasok.” Matamlay naman niyang tugon.
“halika, may bagong bukas na kainan doon sa Rockwell. Doon na lamang tayo mag-hapunan”, sabi nito.
Ginagap niya ang kamay nito. “sandali, Franco. May gusto akong sabihin sayo?’ usal niya.
“ha?? Sige.. ano ba yon?” tanong nito.
“Franco, dalawang buwan na akong buntis.” Naiiyak na sambit niya.
Parang binuhusan ng malamig na tubig si Franco. Tila alam na nito ang sasabihin niya.
“mahal na mahal kita Mylene. Pero hindi ko pa kaya….”
Hindi na niya pinatapos si Franco sa sasabihin nito kaya isang malutong na sampal ang pinakawalan niya. Patakbo siyang umalis doon habang ito naman ay naiwang nakatulala.
Nang malaman nito ang kanyang kalagayan, hinanda na niya ang kanyang sarili sa mga pwedeng mangyari kaya nag-alsa balutan na siya mula sa kanyang tiyahin.
Desidido na siyang umuwi ng Davao upang doon na lamang makapagtapos at para maalagaan ang kanyang aguela.
Dumating siya sa Davao at tinanggap naman siya ng kanyang aguela. Mahal na mahal kasi siya nito pero hindi pa rin maiaalis ang hinanakit sa naging kalagayan niya.
Pagkaraan ng pitong buwan, sa isang publikong ospital niya iniluwal ang isang malusog na sanggol at pinanggalanang Andrew.
Sa limang taon na pamamalagi sa Davao, nagtrabaho siya roon at naging head nurse kalaunan.
Doon niya nakilala si Raphael. Si Raphael ay isang piloto na bumisita lamang sa isang kaibigan sa karatig baryo. Naging pasyente niya ito nang maaksidente habang naghihiking kasama ang mga kaibigan nito.
Siya ang unang nakita nito pagkaraang magising mula sa sampung araw na walang malay.
“sir, ok na po ba ang mga sugat niyo? Tanong niya.
“salamat sa pagaalaga mo sa akin habang ako’y nandito ha. Hindi ko alam kung paano kita pasasalamatan.”
“ wala po iyon sir. Trabaho ho naming iyon bilang nurse.” Sagot naman niya.
“ nako huwag mo na akong pinp-“po”. Just call me Raphael.”
“ uhm. Ok po sir…Raphael.”
Di nagtagal ay naging magkaibigan sila nito at sa huli’ynaging manliligaw niya.
“bakit ayaw mo ba sa akin, Mylene?”
‘dahil.. may anak ako”
Iba ito sa mga ibang manliligaw niya dahil tinanggap nito ang pagiging dalagang ina at ang anak niya.
Doon nagsimula ang masayang pagsasama nilang mag-ina na kasama si Raphael.
Hindi rin nagtagal sila ay nagpunta sa Maynila upang doon na manirahan. Parkaraa’y nagpakasa sila at biniyayaan ng isang babaing sanggol. Ito ay pinanggalanang Myra Denise. Pero dahil sa kalakaran ng ng trabaho ni Raphael, napilitan itong  bumalik sa trabaho bilang piloto sa isang airline dalawang taon matapos maipanganak si Myra.
Nahirapang makapag-desisyon si Raphael na umalis at iwan sila Mylene. Binigyan kasi siya ng kanyang amo ng promotion. Malaki kasi ang sweldo. Sino nga ba ang makakatanggi sa offer na iyon kung ang kapalit naman ay maginhawang buhay para sa kanyang mag-iina.
Kahit labag sa damdamin ni Mylene, pumayag pa rin siya.
Sa unang dalawang buwan ay maayos naman ang naging takbo ng kanilang long distance relationship. Pero katulad ng isang ordinaryong mag-asawa ay nagkakaroon sila ng hindi pagkakaintindihan. At ang dahilan ay ang trabaho niya.
Kapag dumating ang oras na napupuno na siya sa nagiging kinahihinatnat ng kanilang pag-aaway, idinadaan niya na lamang sa paginom habang kinukwento sa kanyang matalik na kaibigan na si Paula. Isa itong flight attendant ng airline sa pinagtatrabahuhan niya.
‘ bakit ka pala nag-aayang uminom?  nag-away na naman kayo ni Mylene noh.’ Tanong nito.
‘di ka nagkakamali. Ano ba ang ginawa kong mali? Para rin naman sa kanila ito.’ Malungkot na tugon niya.
‘ hindi mo rin naman sila masisisi dahil sila ang pamilya mo.natural lang naman sa isang relasyon na dumadaan sa ganyan. Tiwala lang.’ sabi naman nito.
Masasabing dito siya pinakamalapit dahil hindi nagkakalayo ang kanilang mga edad sa isa’t-isa. Ang alam niya platonic ang relasyon nila dahil isang nakababatang kapatid lamang ang tingin niya dito. Hindi niya alam, lihim pala siya nitong iniibig.
Nang isang beses na masobrahan sila sa nainom, may nagyari sa kanila. Lubos niyang pinagsisihan ang namagitan sa kanya. Ayaw niya itong madamay sa mga pinagdadaanang problema.
Halos isang buwan itong hindi pumasok pagkaraan ng nangyari.
Nagbalak siyang kausapin ito ng masinsinan upang mag-sorry sa nangyari pero nagulat siya nang nag-file na pala ito ng resignation. Umuwi ito sa Pilipinas.
Nanlulumong bumalik siya sa kanyang kwarto. Isang sulat ang kanyang nakita sa may lamesa. Mali ang ginawa niya. Babae pa rin ito at siya’y lalaki.
“ buntis ako, Raphael pero hindi mo ito kailangang panagutan. Ayokong masirta angrelasyon ninyo ni Mylene dahillang dito. Salamat sa lahat. Mahal na mahal kita. Paalam’ nakasaad sa sulat nito.
Hindi na nakita ni Raphael ang matalik na kaibigang si Paula.
Umuwi si Paula sa Pilipinas upang  doon ipanganak si Krystel Ella o “Ella” pero makalipas ang isang taon bumalik ito sa trabaho para matustusan ang pangangailangan  nito. Iniwan niya ito sa kanyang mga kapatid na matatandang dalaga upang alagaan ito.
“ Tita Myra, ano pong nangyari sa kanila at doon sa mga anak nila?’’ tanong nito.
“itong batang ito. Excited masyado. Sandali na lamang at malalaman mo, Paulene” tugon naman niya.
Pagkalipas ng mahigit 16 na taon,,,,
Isang nakakabinging tili ang gumising kay Andrew. Alam niyang mula ito sa pinakamamahal niyang kapatid.
‘ kuya, GISING!!!! Promise mo sa akin,ihahatid mo ako sa first dayko.” Sigaw ni Myra.
“ five more minutes sis,’’ ungol ni Andrew.
“Francis Andrew, narinig mo naman ang sabi ng kapatid mo hindi ba?” sabi ng kanilang ina.
“ akala ko nga po may sunog. Tunog sirena po kasi inay. hahaha!”  sabi ni Andrew.
‘CHE!’ sabi ni Myra.
Kasalukuyan siyang 3rd year engineering student sa MAPUA habang si Myra naman ay kumukuha ng Journalism student sa PUP. Mahilig kasi itong magsulat at pangarap nitong makapagtrabaho sa  United Nations bilang writer.
Si Myra Denisse ang anak ng kanyang inay kay Tito Raphael.  Tinanggap kasi siya ng kanyang Tito noong bata pa siya kayaito angf dahilan kung bakit hindi iba ang pagtingin niya sa kanyang kapatid kahit magkapatid lamang sila sa ina.
Si Tito Raphael,Inay at si Myra ang angtinuturing niyang pamilya. May hinanakit pa rin kasi siya sa kanyang totoong ama na noo’y nang-iwan sa kanilang mag-ina.  Hindi niya ito kinikilala bialng ama niya.
‘ inay, gusto ko pong sa publikong kolehiyo na lamang mag-aaral. Hindi ko po masisikmura ang mag-aral sa MAPUA na siya ang mag-papaaral sa akin. Mas makakatipid po tayo kung gagamitin na lamang natin ang perang ibinigay niya para si Myra na lamang po ang mag-aaral sa isang magandang unibersidad.” Tutol niya.
“ yun nga ang sinabi ko sa ama mo nang siya ay tumawag.Kaya lamang ang sabi ito, isasama ka nito sa Amerika kapag hindi ka pumayag. Wala namang makapipigil sa’yo kung gusto mong sumama sa kanya. Malaki ka na, desisyon mo iyan.siyanga pala,” Sabi ng ina.
 “dito na lang po ako.” Sagot ni Andrew.
Kaya nga niya pinagiigihan ang trabaho kahit nasa college pa lamang siya upang maipagmalaki naman siya ng mga ito.
Iyon ang dahilan kaya..,.,
“halika na Myra. Papasok ka pa. suambay ka na sa akin. Doon naman ako sa Jolibee-Sta. Mesa inassign kaya masusundo kita palagi.. sabi niya.
Hindi nahirapang makapag-adjust si Myra sa PUP dahil lagging nasa tabi niya ang kuya niya kapag siya’y maykailangan. Mahal na mal niya ito ang ang kanilang inay. Ito rin ang kasakasama niya ng siya’y nag-appy sa nasabing unibersidad. Busy kasi si Inay sa trabaho bilang nurse sa St. Luke’s Medical Center. Kahit ganoon, inaasikaso parin sila ng akanilang mahal na ina.
Naging ok naman kapag hatid-sundo siya ng kanyang kuya pero minsan ay aaawa siya rito dahil lagi itong pagod. Para sa kanya, ang Kuya Andrew niya ay ang Superman ng buhay niya na kahit marami itong ginagawa, sa paaralan man o trabaho, hinding-hindi nito nakakalimutan na maglaan ng oras para sa kanilang mag-iina.
Dahil nga adjustment period pa naman, halos lahat ng mga professor niya ay hindi dumating kaya naisipan niyang sumama sa event ng Youth For Christ (YFC).
Doon niya nakilala si Ella.pareho sila nitong ‘freshie’. Si Ella ay isang HRM student.Sa bahay, lagi niya itong ikinikwento sa inay niya at kuya.Minsan nga’y naghanggad siya na magkaroon ng kapatid na kagaya ni Ella. Sa una pa lamang ay nag-click na sila. Mayroon silang magulang na OFW sa ibang bansa. Halos lahat ng hilig at mga bagay na kinaayawan ay pareho sila. Naging simula iyon ng maganda nilang pagkakaibigan.Lagi niya ritong kinukwento ang tungkol sa kuya niya. Lalo na ang mga embarrassing moments nito.
Hindi pa nagkikita ang kuya niya at si Ella. Ewan ba niya kung bakit. Kaya minsang tinopak siya, ginawan niya ito ng paraan. Sumakto naman na parehong nasa main ang kanilang klase. Ginabi sila ng uwi kaya dumiretso sila sa pinagtatrabahuhan nito. Kaakibat niya siguro ang langit kaya walang masakyan si Ella pauwi.
‘ella, sabay ka na lang sa amin ni kuya’ aya ni Myra.
Parehong napatingin ang dalawa sa kanya.
‘ay oo nga pala. Kuya si Ella, bestfriend ko. Ella, ang kuya ko,
‘hello, kamusta?’ masayang bati ni ella kay Andrew.
‘hmp.’ Tango lang isinagot ni Andrew at bigla na sila nitong tinalikuran upang mag-serve sa ibang mga customers..
‘kuya ang sama mo talaga.’ Pagtatanggol naman ni Myra kay Ella.
‘aba, ang sungit nito ah. Makagaganti rin ako sa’yo.’ Bulong ni Ella sa kanyang sarili.
Saglit silang natahimik nang biglang…
“myra, bakla ba ang kuya mo?’ tanong ni Ella.
Gulat namang napatingin ang magkapatid at ang iba sa mga customers sa kanya.
Halos lahat pala ng tao sa loob ay napatingin sa kanyang kuya na dahilan upang ikapula ng kanyang mukha. Balak pa sanang isubo ni ella ang natitirang French fries nang…
‘halika nga kayong dalawa, ang kukulit nyo at ikaw. ‘ANONG SINABI MO?? AKO BAKLA?’ sabat ni Andrew.
‘sorry, napalakas ata ang boses ko. Hahah.ikaw nagsabi nyan ah. Hahaha bleh. ’sabi niya.
‘tama na nga kayong dalawa. Daig nyo pa ang mag-syota kung mag-away ah”.sita ni Myra.
Sa pagtagal ng ilang buwan, wala parin pinagbago ang dalawa. Para parin silang aso’t pusa kapag nagkikita. Magkaiba man ang dalawa, si Myra ang nagsillbing tagapagbalanse. Ibig sabihin, siya ang pinagaagawan ng mga ito para maging kakampi tuwing nagaaway. Siya rin ang naging tulay upang magkabati at di kaalaunan ay nagkahulugan ng loob. Hindi na nagtaka si Myra na magkakatuluyan ang dalawa. Bagay na bagay naman sila.
Lumipas ang dalawang taon, Graduating na sa kursong Engineering si Andrew habang sila Myra ay nasa iaktlong taon na. Naging matatag rin ang relasyon nila Andrew at Ella bilang magkasintahan.  Masayang-masaya at tila kontento na si Myra sa naging takbo ng buhay niya dahil naroon sa tabi niya ang mga mahal niya sa buhay. Nag-iba ang lahat nang…
Dalawang araw bago ang kaarawan ni Andrew.
‘hi baby!’ bati ni Paula sa kanyang anak.
‘ hi din po mommy, I missed you po’ sagot ni Ella sabay yakap sa ina.
‘sino po  iyang kasama ninyo ma?’tanong niya.
‘si Dr. Alcaraz. Doktor, ang anak ko si Ella.’ Sabi ng mommy niya.
Kagagaling lang ng mga ito sa departure area ng airport mula sa Amerika. Tatlong taon din bago nakauwi ang kanyang ina kaya hindi niya maiwasang maluha sa tuwa at nagbalik na ito.
Dumating ang ika-21st birthday ni Andrew, ang araw na makikita at makakausap nito ang kanyang ama.
Ingay ng telebisyon ang gumising kay Andrew. Makararanas daw ng matinding pagulan sa rehiyon ng Luzon particular ang lungsod ng Maynila. Ito ay ayon sa reporter na nagsasalita. Lagi namang ganoon dito sa Pinas tuwing darating na ang ‘ber’ months. Nagulat siya ng mas maaga pang nagising ang kanyang ina sa kanya. Naghahanda pala ito para sa isang malilit na salo-salo.
‘Happy birthday anak! Bati nito sa kanya.
Si Andrew lang at ang kanilang inay ang nakakaalam ng nakatakdang pagkikita ng dalawa, hindi na nila sinabi ang bagay na iyon kay Myra.
‘aalis na po ako inay. Hindi ko po maihahatid si Myra ngayong araw. Pasensya na po.’ sabi ni Andrew
‘ok. Umalis ka na.. Sigurado akong kukulitin ako ng kapatid mo para malaman kung saan ka pupunta. Basta magiingat ka ha. Love you anak.’ Sabi ni Aling Mylene.
Pagkaalis nito,siya namang paglabas ni Myra mula sa kanyang kwarto.
‘inay, asan si kuya.? Kaarawan pa niya naman ngayon.’ tanong ni Myra.’
‘Umalis na. may pupuntahan lang. siya nga pala hindi ka niya masusundo mamayang paguwi mo.’ Sabi nito.
Nalungkot bigla si Myra.
‘huwag kang magtampo sa kuya mo. Alam mo namang mahal na mahal ka niya. Magbihis ka na may pasok ka pa.’ Mariing sabi nito.
Opo inay. Sige po papasok na po ako,,paalam ni Myra.
Maagang natapos ang klase niya kaya nagkayayaang gumala muna. Pumayag silang dalawa ni Ella sa naging alok ng kanyang mga kaklase. Wala namang kasing susundo sa kanila dahil umalis ang kuya niya. Inabutan sila ng dilim ng sila’y matapos pumunta ng mall. Bumuhos ang malakas na ulan kaya nagpasya muna silang dalawa nila na pumunta sa bahay ni Ella.
‘halika pasok ka. Pasensya na ha. Maliit lang kasi ang kwarto ko.sigemaghahanda lang ako ng hapunan natin ha’ Sabi ng kaibigan.
Kahit maliit, napapanatili ni Ella na malinis ito.
‘ok. Siyanga pala, pahiram nang notes mo sa College Algebra. Pareho naman tayong may ganoong subject eh.’ Paalam niya.
‘ok sige.’ Sabi nito.
Habang nililipat niya ang pahina, May isang litratong nalaglag mula rito. Akala niya litrato iyon ng kuya niya pero hindi dahil katulad iyon ng litrato sa kanyang wallet—litrato ng kanyang ama na si Raphael!
Nakarating si Andrew sa kanilang tagpuan at doon nadatnan niya ang isang matipunong ngunit halata dito na may edad na rin ito kasama ang isang babaing hindi nalalayo sa edad nito. Napansin niyang nakasuot pa ito ng uniporme ng isang doktor. Maaaring sa ospital pa ito nanggaling. Magkahalong saya at galit ang naramdaman niya ng makitang magkahawig sila ng lalaking iyon. Masaya siyang makikita na niya ang ama niya pero napakuyom na lamang siya ng maalala ang ginawa nitong pagiwan sa kanilang mag-ina. Pinilit niyang maging magalang sa mga ito.
‘magandang hapon po, Mr. Alcaraz.’ Bati niya.
‘maupo ka anak,’ tugon ng matandang lalaki.
Salamat po.’ Sagot niya.
‘bago ko nga pala makalimutan, anak si Tita Paula mo. Paula, ang anak kong si Andrew.’ Sabi nito.
Nang maisip niyang ito ay kasintahan ng kanyang ama, lalo siyang naramdam ng galit para dito. Kailangan niyang kontrolin ang sarili para matapos na itong pagkikita nila. Ang ama niya ay hindi magkamayaw sa pagkukwento tungkol sa sarili. Kapag tinatanong siya nito, tipid lamang ang kanyang sinasagot. Hindi na kinayang kontrolin ni Andrew ang sarili ng dumako ang usapan tungkol sa kanyang ina.
‘ang lakas naman ng loob ninyo para makipagkita sa akin matapos ninyo kaming iwan.’ Sabi niya.
 ‘anak, patawad kung ngayon lang tayo nagkita.oo kasalanan ko, hindi ako nagkaroon ng lakas ng loob para ipaglaban kayo ni Mylene mula sa mga magulang ko. Nang malaman nila ang kalagayan ng iyong ina, pinauwi nila ako sa Amerika. Sinabi nila sa akin na tinanggap niya ang perang inalok nila at matagumpay ang ginawang aborsyon. Hindi ko sila pinaniwalaan at pumunta ako sa tinitirhan niya. Pagdating ko roon, wala na ang iyong ina. Hindi raw alam ng kanyang tiya kung saan siya nagpunta. Ang tiya pala niya ay inalok din ng pera ng aking mga magulang. Patawad anak. Mahal na mahal ko kayong dalawa.’ Naiiyak na sambit nito.
Sa bahay naman ng nila Aling Mylene..
Hindi mapakali si Aling Mylene. Sana maging maayos ang kahihinatnan ng pagkikita ng mag-ama. Taon na rin naman ang hinintay niya upang mangyari ito. Lam niyan sasabihin na ni Franco ang tunay na nangyari sa pag-iwan nito sa kanilang mag-iina.
Bigla namang may kumatok sa pinto.
10 taon na ang nakararan ng huli bago siya nakauwi ng Pilipinas. Ang lagi ng pinagbago ng bansa. Lalo tuloy siyang nasasabik na makita ang pamilya niya.
‘tao po!! Mylene’ sabi ni Raphael habang kumakatok,
‘sino kaya iyon? Sandal lang.’ tugon ni Mylene.
‘RAPHAEL?’ sambit ni Mylene.
‘ oo, ako nga mahal ko. Pasensya na kung ngayon lang ako nakarating. Na-cancel kasi ang flight ko ng ilang oras dahil sa matinding pag-uulan kanina. Nandiyan nab a ang mga bata.? Marami akong pasalubong sa mga anghel natin.’ Tugon nito sabay kabig sa asawa upang bigyan ng isang halik.
Masayang-masaya si Mylene sa ibinalita ng kanyang kabiyak. Posible pala silang maging buo ngayong kaarawan ni Andrew. Ngunit kulang pa pala sila—hindi pa dumarating si Myra!
Hindi akalain ni Andrew ang inamin ng kanyang ama. Pagkaraan noo’y naging magaan na ang usapan nila. Nagtanong ito tungkol sa pangalawang asawa ang kanyang ina at kay Myra. Tumagal ang paguusap ng mag-ama.
Bigla namang may tumawag sa kanya, si inay.
‘andrew, hindi pa dumarating ang kapatid mo. Hindi naman niya sinasagot ang cellphone niya. gabing-gabi na. baka kung anong mangyari roon.’ Nagaalalang sabi ng kanyang inay.
‘sige po inay.’ Sagot niya.
Nagpaalam na siya sa kanyang ama at sa kasama nito. Ayaw pa sana niyang matapos ang usapan nila pero kailangan niyang hanapin si Myra. Pinuntahan niya agad si Ella sa kanilang bahay.

 ‘ella, kasama mo ba ang kapatid ko?’ tanong niya.
‘oo kasama ko siya pero bigla na lamang siyang umalis. Hindi ko nga alam kung bakit, umiiyak siya ng Makita ko na hawak niya ang picture ng tatay ko.’ Tugon naman ng kasintahan.
‘baka naman kakilala niya, pero imposible namang umiyak ng ganon lang si myra. Sino ba angnasa litratong iyon?
‘ ang tatay Raphael ko.’ Sabi nito.
Gulat na gulat si Andrew sa kanyang narinig pero hindi niya ito pinahalata dahil may biglang nag-doorbell sa labas ng bahay nila Ella.
‘andrew, sila mama na siguro iyon.’ Paalam nito.
Sakto namang pumasok sila Paula at Franco sa sala. Nanabutan sila nitong naguusap.
‘anong ginagawa mo rito, Andrew? Tanong ng amang si Franco.
‘kilala niyo po si Andrew?’ tanong ni Ella.
‘siyempre, siya ang unico hijo ko.’ Tugon nito.
Hindi alam ni Andrew ang gagawin. Kailangan niyang makaalis dito pero paano?
Biglang tumunog ang kanyang cellphone. Si Myra ang tumatawag.
 ‘kuya, hindi ko alam ang gagawin ko. Sunduin mo na ako.’ Nagmamakaawang sambit nito.
‘ok sige. Nasaan ka na ba?’ sagot niya.
‘sige papaunta na ako diyan,’ sabi niya.
‘ sige ho. Aalis na ho ako. May emergency lang ho. Pasensya na.’ paalam niya samga ito.
‘ andrew, sandali….’ Pigil ni Ella ngunit nakaalis na ito.
‘ mr. Alcaraz, totoo ho ba ang sinabi ninyo na anak ninyo si Andrew?’ tanong ni Ella.
Bago man makasagot si Franco..
‘sige na Franco, umuwi ka na. tama na,,’ sabi ni Paula.
Naiiyak na si Ella. Nalilito na rin siya sa mga nangyari.
‘Ma, bakit ang daddy ni Andrew pa ang boyfriend mo? Hindi mo ba alam kung gaano kasakit iyon para sa akin. Ikaw itong nagpakasasa sa ibang bansa tapos darating ka dito at sisirain mo lang ang buhay ko. I HATE YOU! ‘ pagdadabog ni Ella.
‘hindi totoo yan.’ Sigaw ni Paula sabay sampal dito.
Nagulat sila pareho sa ginawa ng kanyang ina.Mabilis na pumunta si Ella sa kanyang kwarto. Sinarado nito ang pinto kaya walang nagawa si Paula kung hindi ang maghintay.
‘patawad anak.’ Iyon ang tanging nasabi ni Paula.
Naguguluhan na siya sa mga nangyari. Natutop ang kanyang bibig. Bakit kailangang sa kaarawan pa niya nalaman ang ganitong mga sikreto na maaaring makasira sa magandang pagsasama nilang lahat.
Tulala sa isang sulok si Myra ng makita ni Andrew.
‘MYRA!’sigaw nito sabay yakap sa kapatid.
‘kuya.’ Sabi nito.
‘oh bakit?’ tanong ni Andrew.
‘MAG-BREAK NA KAYO NI ELLA HA.’ Ang huling nasabi nito at bigla na lamang hinimatay.
Hindi niya masisisi ang kapatid dahil kahit siya’y nagulat sa nalaman. Inalalayan niya ito hanggang sila’y makauwi. Wala siyang ibang pinagsabihan tungkol dito.
Isang linggo na ang lumipas, hindi pa rin pumapasok si Myra sa unibersidad habang si Ella nama’y hindi pa rin pinapansin ang ina nito. Nagaalala na ang kanilang ina at ama. Ayaw rin kasi sabihin ni Myra ang dahilan. Pagod lang raw ito kaya ganoon si Myra ayon kay Andrew. Alam niyang nagsisinungaling ito pero hinayaan na lamang ni Mylene. May mabigat siguro itong dahilan kaya ginawa niya ito.
‘ano ba talaga ang  nangyari kay Myra?’ nagaalalang tanong ni Aling Mylene.
‘ inay, hayaan ninyo ho siyang makapagpahinga.malalaman nyo rin’ Malingkot na sabi ni Andrew.
‘sige anak. Syanga pala, aalis muna kami ng Tito Raphael mo. Bibisitahin naming ang kanyang mga kamag-anak.’papalam ng ina.
Bumalik na si Andrew sa pagbabantay kay Myra. Hanggang ngayon ay hindi pa rin niya sinasagot ang mga text at tawag ni Ella. Nahihirapan siyang magdesisyon kung itutuloy pa niya ang hiling ng kapatid.
Nabalitaan ni Ella na hindi pa rin pumapasok si Myra kaya naisipan niyang dalawin ito. Balak din niyang alamin ang nagyari dito..Naghanda siya ng prutas para sa matalik na kaibigan para naman gumaan ang pakiramdam ni Myra.
Nagulat siya ng si Andrew ang nagbukas sa kanya. Bigla siyang nahabag ng makita ang kasalukuyang itsura ni Andrew. Pumayat ito at halata ang pagiging mahina nito.
‘hi Myra. Ok ka na ba?’ sabi ni Ella.
‘BAKIT ANDITO KA? TIGILAN MO NA NGA KAMI!’ Sabi ni Myra.
‘ha? Bakit?’ tugon ni Ella.
Pareho na silang umiiyak nito.
‘GINUGULO MO KAMI! UMALIS KA NA BAKA MAKALIMUTAN KONG BESTFRIEND KITA.’ Sigw ni Myra.
‘sumosobra ka na. Wala siyang alam tungkol dito. Pagtatangol ni Andrew.
‘at ikaw kuya. Kinakampihan mo pa siya kaysa sa akin. MAGAAGAW KA TALAGA! Pati ba naman ang kuya ko?????’ bulyaw nito.
‘tumigil ka na, Myra. Nagmamakaawa ako sa iyo.’ Iyon lang at sinubsub na nito ang mukha sa mga kamay nito.
‘halika na Ella, magusap tayo.’ Sabi niya.
Alam niyang nagtataka ito dahil halos isang linggo silang hindi nagkita at nagusap at sa nangyari kanina.
‘ano ba iyon, andrew? May naging problema ba? Tungkol ba ito noong birthday mo?”
‘ewan ko. Pero sa tingin ko ay kailangan na nating mag-break. Naguguluhan na ako. Ayokong madamay pa kayo ni Myra.. tandaan mong mahal na mahal kita. Paalam.’ Sabi ni Andrew.
Sa paglipas ng mga araw, si Andrew ang nahihirapan. Gusto na niyang matigil ang lahat ng mga nangyari. Hindi siya umuwi ng kanilang bahay. Nakaisip siya ng plano.
‘Tito, Inay, may kaliangan po kayong malaman isama ninyo po si Myra. Magkita po tayo.’Sabi niya.
‘Tay,pwede ninyo ho bang isama si Tita Paula at si Ella. May kailangan ho kayong malaman. Magkita po tayo.
Nagulat ang apat ng magkakitakita sila. Lahat ng mga importanteng tao sa buhay ni Andrew ay dumating. Si Inay, Itay, Tito Raphael at si Andrew.
Isinalaysay niya sa apat ang mga nalalaman niya tungkol sa mga sikretong naibunyag.
‘nagmamakawa ho ako sa inyo. Nahihirapan na ho talaga ako.hindi ko na ho alamang gagawin ko.
 Kahit hindi sumagot ang mga ito, alam niyang kailangan na nilang aminin sa kanilang mga anak ang mga sikretong kinubli ng mga ito.
‘Anak.‘Ayokong madamay kayo sa mga naging kamalian naming mga matatanda. Patawad..’ Sabi ni Mylene.
‘Anak ko sa pagkadalaga si Andrew kay Franco. Alam na iyon ni Andrew at ni Ella.Salamat Franco at sinabi mo na kay Andrew ang dahilan ng iyong pagiiwan sa amin. Tandaan mong may lugar ka pa rin sa puso ko.’ Sabi ni Mylene.
Si Paula naman ang sumunod.
‘hindi alam ni Raphael na nagbunga ang isang gabing pareho naming pinagsisisihan. Hindi ko sinabi sa kanya ang tungkol kay Ella. Ayokong sirain ang relasyon ninyong dalawa. Oo, aaminin ko minahal ko noon si Raphael pero alam kong kapatid lamang ang tingin niya sa akin at ikaw ang pinakamamahal niya. Patawarin ninyo sana ako.At sa huli, walang relasyong namamagitan sa amin ni Franco. Pasyente niya lang ako. Alam mo ba ella na wala akong balak bumalik sa Amerika noong nakalipas na tatlong taon kung hindi lamang ako na-diagnose na may subacute cutaneous lupus erythematosus (SCLE) ako. Hindi lang halata sa akin dahil nga ang taonhg natamaan nito ay hindi kakikitan ng scars o peklat. Tatlong taon akong nakipaglaban sa sakit na ito doon sa amerika..  Pinigilan ako ni Franco na umuwi dahil masmakakasama raw sa akin iyon. Pero masisisi ba naman niya ako na isang ina na nangungulila sa kanyang anak, Kaya ako umuwi dito para makapiling ka bago ako bawian ng buhay.’ Naiiyak na tugon nito.
‘Mahal na mahal po kita,mommy.’ Sabi ni Ella.
Pagkaraan noo’y tila nakaramdam ng kapayapaan si Andrew. Maaayos na ang lahat.

Pagkalipas ng dalawang taon, maraming nagbago sa mga buhay ng ating mga bida.
Silang tatlo ay nakatapos na ng pagaaral. Natupad ng mga ito ang mga mithiin nila sa buhay. Wala na silang mahihiling pa. Si myra ay isang sikat na writer ng UN habang si9 Andrew naman ay naging topnotcher sa licensure exam. Si Ella naman ay isang manager ng hotel pero ito’y naka-maternal leave dahil nga’y kapapanganak pa lamagn sa unang anak nila ni Andrew. Pinangalanan itong Mary Paulene. Ang ‘Paulene’ aymula sa pinaghalong pangalan ng mga aguela nito na sina Paula at Mylene habang ang ‘Mary’ ay mula sa pangalan niya. Isang buwan matapos maipanganak si Paulene ay namatay naman ang ina ni Ella na si Paula dahil nga sa lupus. Isang mialgro nang tumagal ang buhay nito ng isa pang taon.
Ika-14 ng Pebrero. Araw ng kasal nila Andrew at Ella.
Naging emosyonal lahat ng miyembro ng pamilya dahil nga ikakasal na ang magsingirog sa altar. Ngunit sa kasamaang palad ay namatay ang mga ito habang papunta sa Amanpulo,Palawan kung saan dapat mag-hohoney moon ang dalawa.
Ika- 14 na araw ng buwan ng Pebrero ng taong kasalukuyan
Mabuting niyang pinagmasdan ang pamangking si Paulene habang ito’y tumatakbo sa kanya.
Kuhang-kuha nito ang pagiging masayahin at pagkabungisngis ni Ella, ang matalik niyang kaibigan. Naiiba ito sa mga batang kasing-edad nito dahil mayroon itong mature na pagiisip na nakuha naman sa mahal nyang Kuya Andrew.
Isang luha ang nagpadausdos sa kanyang pisngi nang maalala ang mga ito.
Tatlong taon na ang nakakalipas ng sumakabilang-buhay ang dalawa sa mga mahal ni Myra sa buhay, si Kuya Andrew at si Ella dahil sa isang aksidente.
Masakit pa rin sa kanya na naulila ang kanilang anghel dito sa mundong ibabaw na walang kinikilalang ama’t ina.
Bigla siya nitong niyakap at isang tanong ang nagpaalis ng ngiti sa kanyang mga labi,
“ Tita, sino po sila?” tanong ni Paulene.
Dalawang kamay ang humawak sa kanyang mga balikat. Sila Inay at Itay.
“ Panahon na sigurong kanya nang malaman ang tungkol sa kanila. Mas mabuti na alam na niya ng mas maaga.” Sabi ni Aling Mylene,.
“Tama ang Inay mo, Myra” sangayon naman ng kabiyak nito.
“paulene, halika rito.may ikukwento sa’yo si Tita Myra…”

A Junior Noob In Shambles



Title: In shambles

 
Hello !
It’s me again.  Woohoo -_-
I got a bunch of some news to share with you bloggie!

Indicators:
Bad news and Good news


1. I haven’t posted or composed anything since 1st of June but I’m almost done with my poem about my elementary classmates, I decided to lengthen the first story I posted here as a series and I’ve been formulating some new storylines including a story about heartbreak.


Composed Gentleman is my HERO!
2. I’m still new at blogging and my blog is not yet “personalized” enough but I’m glad that I found Composed Gentleman’s blog while surfing the net yesterday. 
In his blog entry, he included blogging tips to help other bloggers especially ‘noobs’ like me.
One of them is a about how he survived a year of blogging. I’ve read it for the nth time and also I saved that page as a guide for blogging. I also wanted to write about my own experience as a blogger similar to his post, so I’ll make an effort to monitor my blogging experience starting now..and that’s a fact!


Kudos to you sir, in return, I subscribed to your blog. Your post was a great help, by the way. Thank you!

3. Our new semester just kicked off last Monday. We have killer 9AM to 9PM schedules but we got new subjects including our electives. Also, I got the chance to see my blockmates and bestfriends and also him again.
It was not a bad first week because I have met some great professors in our new subjects. One of them told us to “make our denstiny in his class”. Tinamaan tlaga ako doon. I’ll post an entry about it soon.

I guess this is goodbye for now.


I hope we will have a fruitful semester ahead of us.

P.S. Bottomline is that my i.ph blog (whatlieswithin.i.ph) and its blogger counterpart (seewhatlieswithin.blogspot.com) are still under construction but I will continue posting entries maybe not everyday but every week.

Another entry will be posted soon.   
  
Good day bloggie !